Saturday, 6 February 2010

lethargy

Have felt lethargic and bad-tempered today. As I write this, I might be coming out of it (not a moment too soon). Does the writing help? Maybe. Noting it down in context of everything else that I've noted down helps me to see that however much a feeling is in the moment, it is also a process. Like yesterdays blog, it is looking at the same thing from many angles: lethargy is simply when I'm fed up looking at it, but can't get away from it.

I will go back into communications-flow next week and feel entirely different... just watch! it happens over and over again! But now, even though I know that will happen, even though I might want to be there, I can't put myself there. I can't unblock myself; I only know the blockage will clear.

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